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Everyone calls me Melissa cause thats my name.
I like to dance and eat and drool and ogle at hot bods and shop for pretty clothes and kick butts.
I think you'll like me if you get to know me.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
[ 6:06 AM ]
I have no idea how i feel now.
After I heard it,
I felt like crying.
Now, i feel like my entire being is being anchored to the ground.
I feel so heavy, and numb.
Am i sad, or am i not
Or has this happened once, when that once was so painful, that I've developed an immunity.
I did cry, unconsciously.
When i woke up from the vision, my cheeks were wet.
Let me feel the pain.
Or let me lose this numbness once and for all.
This isnt painful, it's torturous.
But i brought it all upon myself, for thinking too much about it.
I deserve this.
For having my hopes up based on nothing.
For thinking too highly of myself.
How can someone like me end up ... ...
This is the last day I'll weep and ache.
From tommorrow onwards, life will go on.
I will work hard to keep the days going, with no more tears.
Because, my heartache wont change anything.
Morover, im leaving soon.
I'll hold on till then.